esther

2010-02-24T00:19:00.002+08:00

We'll never be able to know someone well enough

=)

2009-12-25T16:20:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

May God be with you!

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2009-08-26T19:38:00.003+08:00

Death.

Am I scared of it?

Well, I shouldn't be.

I've been hearing too many news on people dying.. people getting into accidents.. i saw two ambulances pass me by just today.. yesterday night my friends got into an accident (but thank God they are alright).. i just found out that a junior in my high school passed away in a car accident in msia..

DEATH

I shouldn't be afraid of it.. but I am.

Am I ready to be taken away?

I need to live my life for Him. Wholly for Him.

I need to clean up certain areas in my life.

Am I ready to meet Him?

Would I be able to hear 'well done, good and fatihful servant'?

On another note, PEOPLE NEED GOD.

Those three words have been in my mind for months.

PEOPLE NEED GOD.

We all seriously need a wake up call.

revolution

2009-08-19T09:09:00.001+08:00

note to self:
Romans 12:2
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - His good, pleasing and perfect will.

fireproof

2009-08-16T19:45:00.001+08:00

Fireproof doesn't mean it won't get on fire, but when it does, you'd be able to withstand it.

God so loved..

2009-08-14T11:04:00.000+08:00

Miracle of Mercy

2009-08-10T12:59:00.005+08:00

We watched this yesterday in church. I cried so much, I just can't imagine that someone has to go through all this, and at such a young age. It is truly heartbreaking.

But it is heartwarming to see that with a little help, the lives of these children can be changed dramatically.

A miracle of mercy.

Matthew 25:35-36 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothes me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.

25000 children die from hunger and preventable diseases everyday. (worldvision)

Hunger. Preventable diseases. They are preventable.

So, what can you do?

The answer is simple.

GIVE.

I'll be doing thr 40 hour famine and I really encourage you to do it as well.

If you are not, please support someone doing it.

updates?

2009-08-01T10:48:00.002+08:00

So I haven't been updating my blog since forever. Just a few random updates:

1. I love my cell :) Awesome bunch of God-loving people. Expecting great moments together.

2. I love my free fridays! aaah :D

3. Surprise surprise. Am stressing about geol 202 labs already!

4. I haven't baked anything in a while. Boo hoo :(

5. I am going to target to buy games! Heeee :D:D:D:D

6. Freshies this sunday. Looking forward.

7. I have a strawberry plant! huahuahua

8. But it is dying i think D:

9. I am HAPPY!

10. ...

This is like twitter.. except that everything is twittered at one go. Hahaha!

much love!

free!

2009-06-16T12:52:00.000+08:00

nobody parody

2009-05-27T14:52:00.000+08:00

HAHA. Hilarious!

=D

2009-05-25T00:00:00.001+08:00

Taking a break off the sedimentary assignment.

Sorry for the lack of posts. And it'll probably be that way for the next three weeks! FINALS!!! =(

Anyways, if you do come to my blog and there's nothing to read or you want more or you're bored or you're curious or you're kay-poh or you're 3-8 which probably means the same thing as kay-poh, go keep yourself entertained with..

godssipsgospel.blogspot.com

=D

konklusi?

2009-05-18T00:01:00.000+08:00

conclusion: don't let go of anything! (?)

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2009-05-17T22:33:00.004+08:00

Ever felt like you've let go of something,
then later feels afraid that you have lost it forever?

Pretty Mummy ♥

2009-05-12T12:32:00.002+08:00

(Dinner for Mother's Day =D =D)

I ♥ you Ma

emo emo

2009-05-10T23:20:00.004+08:00

I feel super emo now man. It's so annoying.
I'm supposed to be assignment-ing now and being emo doesn't help.
haih.

emo emo.

edited
Emo no more. =)
And mind you guys, it's not the i'msuperduperdepressed kind of emo lahh. It was just a one night thing.
Nyahaha =P

Photoshop noob

2009-05-09T19:43:00.005+08:00

Today, I got some Photoshop love!
<3
Kudos to my sifu for teaching me.

Photo taken and edited by me!
(First try with photoshop, starting to feel the loveee)

Photo taken and edited by.. me again! =P
(Oh, can you feel the looveee tonight???)

Photo taken by... Jun!
(nyahaha, you thought it would be me again, right RIGHT?Well, you thought wrong! =P)
Edited by me! =D
I like this shot, well partly cause I don't look fat/unglam, but mostly cause me and cyn look so happy together! Yay to some buddy love =3

Love is in the air they say,
I say, love is in Photoshop.
... and geng cameras.

I want a geng camera too! *sulks*

I'm back

2009-04-24T12:01:00.001+08:00

I'm back guys! If you're wondering where I was, I was at church camp and field trip! It was indeed a refreshing 10 days. =) But I'm glad to be back. I MIGHT write about that soon, might not. See my mood how. =)

So, I've decided to un-private my blog and go public! =D *throws confetti*

2009-04-12T22:45:00.001+08:00

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow
Because He lives, all fear is gone
Because I know He holds the future
And life is worth a living, just because He lives

2009-04-11T10:34:00.001+08:00

Worthy is the Lamb

Satisfiedly tired

2009-04-06T20:56:00.004+08:00

I'm super the tired but super the satisfied!!!
Aah, this feeling of satisfaction.... =D
It's like how my flower at my bedside is tired by staying in the same position all day long but satisfied at looking at sucha pretty face every night.
Huahuahuahua
Pardon the narcissism.

Anywaysss, yes, I am super happy and satisfied today! =D

sisterly love

2009-03-30T18:05:00.001+08:00

Nothing but the blood

2009-03-28T22:56:00.007+09:00

I am ever amazed by His love.
The blood that He shed for me.
The cross that He took for me.
I am ever amazed.

His ever abundant grace for me.
Me, a sinner, whom He loved from the very beginning.
His plans for me are good and properous.
I am ever amazed.

The wounds that were inflicted on His precious body.
The wounds that He took for me.
The pain that was inflicted on Him.
I am ever amazed.

Him, the creator of the Universe.
The King of Kings and Lord of Lords.
Jesus, the Lamb of God.
I am ever amazed.

So Father,
in my amazement of You,
in my awe and reverence of You,
I come before You humbled,
I come before You wanting more,
I come before You broken,
so take me as you find me,
break me, mould me and make me,
for I am Your's and Your's alone.

Forever I want to sing Your praises,
Forever I want to be in Your presence,
Forever I want to be Your princess,
Forever I want to be Your vessel,
Forever I am Your's.

I am made whole in You.
I am loved tremendously by You.
I am set free because of You.
I am Your's.

Father, I love you.
You are my all in all.

Nothing but the blood
Oh! precious is the flow
That makes me white as snow;
No other fount I know,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

What can wash away my sin?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus;
What can make me whole again?
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

Oh! precious is the flow
That makes me white as snow;
No other fount I know,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

This is all my hope and peace,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus;
This is all my righteousness,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

Oh! precious is the flow
That makes me white as snow;
No other fount I know,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

Glory! Glory! This I sing
Nothing but the blood of Jesus,
All my praise for this I bring
Nothing but the blood of Jesus

Oh! precious is the flow
That makes me white as snow;
No other fount I know,
Nothing but the blood of Jesus.

2009-03-24T20:20:00.000+09:00

On days of gray
When doubt clouds my view
Its so hard to see past my fears
My strength seems to fade
And its all I can do
To hold on, till the light reappears.
Still, I believe though some rain's bound to fall
That you're here next to me
And you're over it all.

Lord, the sky's still blue
For my hope is in you
You're my joy, You're the dream thats still alive
Like the wind at my back
And the sun on my face
You are life,You're grace.
You are blue skies, You're my blue skies

When nights are long
Seems the dark has no end
Still we walk on in the light of the truth
For waiting beyond, where the morning begins
Is the dawn, and your mercy anew.
Oh, to believe we're alive in your love
There is so much to see, if we keep looking up.

You filled the heavens with hope and a higher love
A picture of promise for life.

Blue Skies - Point of Grace

This is Me

2009-03-23T18:58:00.004+09:00

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let His light shine through me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I'm supposed to be
This is me
Adapted from Demi Lovato's This is Me

Kudos to Jun for the lovely photo!
(take more pretty photos for me plsss =p)

purely for rockers =P

2009-03-19T22:04:00.003+09:00

As mentioned above, you'll only be able to understand this post if you're a rock lover, that means you have to be a geologist. =)

I saw this from a friend's blog. I think she's studying earth science but I'm not sure. Apparently, this was on the shirt of some club in their university. I find it SUPER hilarious hookaysss?!

"You can test my hardness, if I can check your cleavage"

*Takes a deep breath* Hahaahahhahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha *wipes tear off* hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaa *takes another deep breath* hahahahahahahahhahahahahaahhahahahahahahahahhahaha

Omgoodness, super funny loh. These guys are comedically geniuses!

Anyways, for those non rockers out there, it's not something yellow okkaaiis??! Don't cincai think!!

water, anyone?

2009-03-04T09:16:00.001+09:00

If you wana drink more water, eat vegemite. I swear it'll work!

=)

2009-02-15T16:31:00.002+09:00

This post is titled '=)' because I just realized that my last two posts was titled '=)'.

So far last week has been tiring, but superbly awesome! Orientation, although the lack of helpers, was a blast! I really thank God for everything man. and our new cells are starting. =D This semester is going to be a good one, I can feel it! Huahahaha, OK so I'm quite high now. and tired!

Ha ha ha ha la la la laaa

oh ya..

www.ofmopsandbrooms.wordpress.com

=)

2009-02-04T12:39:00.002+09:00

Sorry for the lack of posts. I've been quite busy with life.

I'm so happy my family is here. It's just so different! =D

I was looking at old photos my mum brought over and I dare say that I have the CUTEST baby sister! well, not so baby anymore is she. But ya, she was sooo cute and ahdorable as a baby! And she still is!

=D

Love love

=)

2009-01-14T16:56:00.001+09:00

Boo! Once again, I stress on the fact that I hate the post drama watching feeling.

Anyhoos, I think my blog is like super q u i e t now. I baked today! I haven't been baking much lately, the last time was like... christmas? hm, but yes! I am super excited about these cookies! They taste so much like CNY cookies. Esther is happy.

Last night, I went to watch 7 pounds and i was so disappointed can. Don't like the show. Hmph.

Aiyah, I miss a lot of things lah, or people to be exact. Miss miri and friends there. And family. Miss MOPS. Miss zion friends who are back home. Miss coursemates. Miss Joyce (lol, sounds funny to me). Miss a lot of things lah! Aiyah =(

Parents coming in a few days! super excited please! =D

Yippeedoodah, I managed to write a random post, congratulate me! .. .. THANKS!

la la la~

hola!

2009-01-04T20:57:00.002+09:00

Hello! I should blog. Haha, it's been ages since I last wrote something that's not a tag or more than one or two lines.

So, I've been watching lots of jap dramas and i absolutely love it. Anyways, so I'm watching one litre of tears (yes, I know, so outdated) and I think it is soo sad. Like I've been crying so much that it could really be one litre of tears! It got me thinking like, I really thank God that I am healthy and not sick with some terrible disease. I am so blessed.

OK, my lazy bug has caught up with me. Lazy blog more liao. hahahhahahahahhaa

Will TRY to blog soonish.

es <3

Tagged by wil and son

2008-12-21T22:32:00.006+09:00

I didn't realized I'm tagged! Haha!

a) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation.
b) Tag 5 other people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question.

Note from esther: All the answers are as of 10.33pm/21Dec08

1. the age at your next birthday

2. a place you'd like to travel to
3. your favourite place

4. your favorite food

5. your favorite pet

6. your fav. colour combi

7. your favourite piece of clothing

8. your all-time fav. Song

9. your all-time fav. tv show

10. the town in which you live

11. your screen name/nickname

12. your first job

13. Your dream Job

14. bad habit you have

15. your worst fear

16. the one thing you'd like to do before you die

I tag: No one! As usual. lol

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2008-12-17T10:32:00.000+09:00

I hate the post-drama-watching feeling. grrrrr

I miss miri alraedy!

2008-12-12T18:10:00.001+09:00

Not quite excited to go back to Perth. But yes, I'll be back by tml people!

tagged by karen

2008-12-12T17:59:00.002+09:00

1. do you think you're hot?
errr, why yes of course. =.= what kind of question is this?

2. upload a favourite picture of yourself
malas

3. do you like the picture?
yes, i look great

4. when was the last time u ate pizza?
i wanted to eat at pizza hut in msia!! but i didn't get a chance too T.T

5. what was the last song u listened to?
er some korean song lol

6. what are you doing right now besides this?
listening to songs

7. what name do you prefer besides your name?
er, my nicknames loh i guess, but i don't have many anyways

8. 5 people i tagged
karen tagged abby dy! gah. um I'll just tag for the sake of answering the next few question.
karen, abby, chris, jenn, sara ong
(don't need to do this tag lah)

9. who is number 1?
my darling! :) hehe and my best fren and my monkey and my ... :)

10. who is number 3 having a relationship with??
singlehood is the way to go

11. say aomething about number 5
such a darling

12. how about number 4?
very cute!

13. who is buddy number 2?
my best friend, childhood friend, a great sister, and ....... the sheep! XD

busy

2008-12-02T10:24:00.000+09:00

Been busy busy busy! Sorry guys!

Much love

OMG SO HOT!

2008-11-20T05:12:00.001+09:00

Haha. will talk more about the title after my exams.

I SHOULD sleep. it's 5.13am.

EXAMS DRIVE ME CRAZY.

random =)

2008-11-15T12:06:00.002+09:00

Busy exam-ing. 4 down 2 more to go! =)

Praising the Lord for His abundant grace and mercy.

Getting really excited about going home in a week!

Missing friday cell times when her lovely estherians.

Feeling very tired.

Feeling very happy!

Thanking God for everything!

Praying for miracles.

Oh, and thanking God for miracles that have been done.

Going back to study now.

Pray for me!

My chicken wing buddy

2008-11-01T15:57:00.002+09:00

I love love loovee chicken wings

and yesterday, I found my chicken wing buddy

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MIC THE HAIR MODEL!!!!

Hehe, HELLO fellow chicken wing lover.

I wana be a fruitcake

2008-10-27T21:39:00.006+09:00

I got this in an email last week and thought that it was really good.

Let's be fruitcakes!

Sorry It's a bit long, but it's worth reading.

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This is about a student that I heard about earlier this week. Her name is Ashley and we’ve kind of connected through a random set of circumstances. Let me tell you about her really quickly and I want to read you something of hers that I have permission to read to you tonight.

Ashley was a senior at the University of Florida. She hated church, hated Christians, hated God. She was living with this guy and he cheated on her. She came home and found him in the act, so she punts him out of the house. And decides after to get back together, break up, get back together, kind of all that friction. She finally decides that she’s done with him.

She decides that she needs a new roommate for the last semester, which would be the last spring semester of college. So she puts a little add up and she tells everybody at the school that she needs someone to move in with me for the last semester and she gets a taker for a roommate.

I just want to pick up the story, these are her words and we have permission to read them to you tonight. I just love them. I’m just going to read them to you if I can if it’s okay if you want to listen o a few of her words.

January 7 last year, her words:

Happy final semester of college! So M (that’s the boyfriend) is officially out of the apartment and I’m so glad he’s gone. Though I’ve loved him for the last two years and I still do love him so much, but I’m renting out one of the rooms because I really do not want to live alone. I rented it out this winter break to this girl Christa. She seems sweet, but it turns out she’s a fruitcake.

She’s into all that God stuff, but I’m pretty sure she’s even more “wakko” than my mom, my brother, and my stepdad.

I asked her what she did over winter break and she said that she went home and came back early to go to a conference in Atlanta. I made the mistake of asking what kind of conference it was. Apparently it was the greatest thing she has ever done. She said that God really changed her at this Passion Conference. Well, I do not link Passion and God but whatever. She said that she got to worship God with over 20,000 other college students. So yea, that was the best thing she’s ever done? She needs to get out more. A lot more.

So that’s the new fruitcake. Jeremy is her guy and he (all caps) HATES ME. We had to work on a project together last year and he made it clear that he thinks he’s better than me. He would get along well with my mom, he’s a little holier than thou Bible thumper. I really hope fruitcake isn’t as crazy as he is otherwise it’s going to be a long semester.

School this semester is going to be a breeze and I’m taking 4 classes. Three are electives. That was smart planning on my part. I’m going to party like It’s 1999 this semester and have the time of my life before I can’t hide behind the fact that I’m in college. LOL. (That means laugh out loud, by the way J)

Well, be back later. That was January 7th.

Here comes January 12th:

M and I are back together, well kind of. I do love him so much. He came over last night and we hung out with (to protect their identities) J, and C, and C, and F. We were all drinking and watching the movie. The lights were out and of course M and I quit watching the movie right after the opening credits. We were amazing together. He did not say anything about us being together officially again, but he did spend the night. But he left pretty early; he said he had a class. So do I, so now I have to run.

5 days later. January 17th:

Okay, so it’s been a few days since I’ve been here. I’ve been so busy, I went running today. I was running past one of the buildings in the complex and I see M’s car. Then I see him coming out of N’s apartment. I just kept going. He had on the same clothes that he had on when I saw him at C’s house last night. He told me last night that he still needed a little time to figure out what he wants. So I was like, “that’s cool”. But there’s only one reason he would sleep at that blank’s place last night. I cannot believe that he slept with that blank blank. I ran an extra 3 miles and then finally came home dripping in sweat. Mind you it’s 40 degrees outside and I’ve already taken my jacket off.

I came in and went straight into the kitchen walking past Christa and pulling a beer out of the fridge and ice cream out of the freezer. I jumped on the counter and ate my ice cream and just cried. Christa asked me if I was okay when I walked into the kitchen. And I said, “Hell no I’m not okay!”

Fruitcake then grabbed another container of ice cream out of the freezer and sat down at the table. “Why the hell do we have so much ice cream in January? There are 3 more containers of ice cream in there!”

I really wanted her just to leave me alone, but since she was not going to do that, I asked her what was wrong with her. I mean, she obviously did not drink; she does not go to clubs. She asked me what I meant by that and I asked her why she was the way she was and all she said was “God”.

She said that it was her goal to live a life that Christ would be proud of. I laughed out loud. I couldn’t help it, but fruitcake was serious. I asked her if she’s ever slept with Jeremy, the guy she’s dating, and she said “no”. When she gets married, she’ll be a virgin. WOW (all caps)! Those are still around?!

She said they’ve been dating 3 years. I have not dated a guy for 3 months and not slept with him! I cannot imagine 3 years without sex – the girl is a fruitcake!

She then said it was because she had a personal relationship with God, that she was saved. I did have to admit that she was different from the Christians I know, but she’s still a fruitcake.

But then she asked me why I was so upset. I told her all about M wanting more time apart and seeing him come out of N’s apartment. I cannot believe how much one guy can mess me up. I told her about all the shit that he’s put me through and how he used me and cheated on me. And you know what? She did not give me all the Christian crap that my mom always gives me if I mention M to her.

Fruitcake just sat there and she listened to me vent. She did not criticize me when I was done. All she did was say, “wow” and she said, “Ashley I’m really sorry that he’s done that to you.” Then she did it. She asked if she could pray for me. I laughed. Jumped off the counter and said, “I need to shower”.

After my shower, Christa was gone and I just sat on the couch and cried. I love M. And I hate him. How is that possible? I should only hate him. I cannot figure Christa out and her little Bible-thumping world. You know she actually reads her Bible? Like ... a lot. I see it move around the apartment from the kitchen, to the living room, and even in the office.

I should be the enemy to her. The one she wants nothing to do with, but she does not seem to think that she is better than me. It also seems that this God and Jesus stuff are real to her. I do not understand the fruitcake at all.

January 18th, I will just abbreviate:

The fruitcake and I went running together today. I cannot believe she actually kept up! (Amazing, Christians can actually run! Who knew?)

The next day, January 19th:

Okay so I have to find out what makes Christa so different from every Christian I have ever known. She doesn’t look down her nose at me. She really is nice to me and acts like she just wants to be my friend. Without getting anything in return? It doesn’t make sense. No one ever just wants to be Ashley’s friend. Especially not a Christian! God is not for people like me. My brother is supposed to be the only Christian who doesn’t judge me, and that’s only because he’s my brother.

January 21st:

Okay I did it this morning. Fruitcake and I were in the kitchen and I ask her why this God stuff was so important to her. She told me it was because He truly loved her and He was her closest friend. So I ask her, what she meant by that: She said exactly what I said, she said that God was all about love and God’s love is the greatest thing ever. So then I was like, “why do you live all perfect the way you do”? And she laughed and said that she was not perfect by any stretch of the imagination … but that she was forgiven. She said that she was at this Passion Conference and she explains the 20,000 people with “no lives” thing in Atlanta. She said she was reminded that God loves not only her but also the rest of the world. He sent His son to die for us all. Basically the Easter story.

Mom used to make me go to church all the time and I hated it. I quit going in high school when I was old enough to stay at dad’s place all the time. (Her parents were separated). See, God is for people like fruitcake, Jeremy, and their friends. Not for people like me, I am way too screwed up for God to care at all about me. Fruitcake had to go to work, so we had to end our conversation and she said that she’d love to talk some more when she got home tonight if I wanted to. I told her, “maybe”.

Well, after she left, M came over and apologized for sleeping with N again. But as he said, “we’re not together anymore”, but he did say that when he saw me running away, he realized what a big mistake he had made … again. He said that I’m the only one he wants to be with. He said he loved me so much and I really want to believe him. We’ve been through so much together. But can I forgive him for sleeping with that blank again?

Besides he’s not going anywhere in life. He’s on academic probation; he’s a second year junior; he’s a professional student … So I ask him to leave. I told him I could not do this again. I’m moving on with my life.

He left and I cried and cried for a very long time. I do not need his first, middle, and last name. I can live life on my own. Besides I can get any guy I want. Who needs him?

And she writes, still January 21st, 2007:

Okay so I’m back again. Shit, it has been a crazy day! Crazy enough to make me come back here twice in one day! So no actual homework got done today. I cried, shopped, cried, ate, cried, ran, cried, and ate again. So you get the point there was a lot of crying today. I did not answer my cell literally the 17 times he called me today.

Well, I’m on couch when fruitcake got home. She sat down and asked me if I wanted some ice cream. I cannot help but laugh. We sat there in silence for a really long time and then I ask her how much God was going to punish her for living with a screw-up like me. She looked up at me and said, “Ashley, God is really not like that at all. He really does love us.” I told her that I knew all about this God stuff, and I was far too gone and screwed-up to even think about God’s kind of love. I’m not a religious nutcase like my mom and her family. As much as I love them, they’re crazy. She just said, “Okay, you need to hear Louie talk about God. He’s better at this than I am.” So I ask who Louie was. She said that he kind of headed up these Passion Conferences. So fruitcake pulls a couple of DVDs off of her shelf in the entertainment unit. She said they were just Louie talking … they were sermons on DVD. I could not believe that fruitcake had sermons on DVD!

But I agree to watch anyway … not like I had anything better to do. So the first one we watch is called Indescribable. And this Louie guy talked about God differently than I have ever heard before. It was kind of weird. He made it seem like God was for everyone. He made it sound like the God that created the universe really cared about all of us. Then when that was over, fruitcake asked me what I thought. I told her I didn’t buy it. I told her that God isn’t for me and that he does NOT love people like me.

She asked me if I wanted to watch another talk, a.k.a. preacher man. I just said, “Whatever”. Again I had nothing better to do. So we watch one called Passport. In this one Louie talked about how Christians do not have to hope for the best in the end. That people do not teed to do enough good stuff to get to heaven. It made sense! Pretty weird, huh?

Then Louie started talking about heaven and about grace, about how God is a loving and forgiving God and that he WANTS to forgive us. It all made sense. I could hardly breathe, though. Seriously … I was sitting there and oxygen was not flowing through my lungs the way it should. The DVD ended and the fruitcake just looked up at me.

I was crying and trying to regain control of my lungs and gather my thoughts. I ask her if what he said was true, that because of grace God could love me. That God could even love the screw-ups.

She said “Yes, it sounds too easy. But all we have to do is ask, and Christ will save us.”

I’ve heard of salvation my whole life, but never agreed with the whole deal of all I have to do is ask and everything would be okay. But then the fruitcake explained that that’s where grace comes into play. She said that it was because God is such a gracious and loving God that he forgives, that Christ took care of everything on the cross. That he did not just die, but most important, he rose again. And she writes in parentheses, Easter.

And she said that Christianity is the only religion where we get to worship a God that has walked the earth, died, and rose again. So there on my couch in the living room, where a lot of shit has gone on, I decided I wanted what fruitcake had. That I wanted what Jeremy had. What my mom had. What my brother and my stepdad all had. I wanted GRACE. So I asked Jesus in my heart. I asked him to forgive me for all the mistakes I had made. I told God that I knew I had messed up a lot, but if he would take me, I wanted to become a Christian. So there you have it, I am a Christian! I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can breathe again. I feel like everything’s going to be aright. I feel like I found something I didn’t even know I was looking for.

I know all this sounds crazy and I’m sober I promise!

Fruitcake said that she’s been praying for me to get saved since the first day she moved in and asked me if I was a Christian. Then we got out the ice cream. I’m going to get FAT with fruitcake around!

Woohoo! J

Just a couple more short ones, January 28:

So I wrote an e-mail a few days ago to Louie Giglio, the sermon guy on the DVD. He wrote back, that’s crazy cool. I drove to Jacksonville to tell mom, my stepdad, and my brother that I’m a Christian. My mom cried and she said she was so happy that I made that decision. My brother and I went running and just did a light jog so we could talk. He was pretty stoked about me learning about grace and stuff. Daddy told me I have gone crazy. But he loves me anyway. That’s daddy’s way. It will take him a long time. My brother says that if I pray, God can use those prayers to soften daddy’s heart and maybe he’ll become a Christian too.

Last one I’m going to read you. Check this out, February 8:

I went to a Bible study with Christa tonight that was actually kind of fun and cool. Everyone was like, “Hey Ashley!” and did not make me feel like awkward and stuff at all. It was like I belong there. They sang some songs which I did not know and everyone else did, but it was cool. My favourite one, I came home and l looked up the lyrics, here they are because I love them. I do not know why, but I started crying when they were singing it and I just wanted to lift my hands like they did. I did not. But I asked Christa about it afterwards. She said that it’s just a way of worshipping God.

Jesus did take me just like he found me with all my failures and screw ups. He loved me just like I am. He showed me so much compassion and mercy and He (all caps) LOVES ME. That just blows me away, you know?

Then she wrote these words in her journal:

Everyone needs compassion:

A love that's never failing;

Let mercy fall on me.

Everyone needs forgiveness;

A kindness of a Savior:

The hope of nations.

My Saviour,

He can move the mountains:

My God is Mighty to save!

He is Mighty to save!

Forever,

Author of salvation:

He rose and conquered the grave!

Jesus conquered the grave!

So take me as You find me,

All my fears and failures;

And fill my life again.

I give my life to follow;

Everything I believe in,

Now I surrender.

My Saviour,

He can move the mountains:

My God is Mighty to save!

He is Mighty to save!

Forever,

Author of salvation:

He rose and conquered the grave!

Jesus conquered the grave!

And so she finishes by writing:

Shine your light and let the whole world see!

We're singing for the glory of the risen King:

Jesus!

Just hear this as we close:

For Christ's love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, therefore all died. And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died and rose again on their behalf. For if anyone is in Christ, he or she is a new creation; the old has gone, and everything is new! All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that God was reconciling the world to himself in Christ, not counting men's sins against them. And he has committed to us this message of reconciliation. We are therefore Christ's ambassadors, as if He were making his appeal through us. So we implore you on behalf of God: Be reconciled to God. For God made Jesus who had no sin to be sin, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.

=D

2008-10-23T08:20:00.002+08:00

Esther is going home in 4 weeks +. Esther is happy. Esther can't wait. Esther smiles a wide smile. =D not wide enough? Esther smiles a wider smile. =D

*poke!!

2008-10-13T01:09:00.003+08:00

I just had a really funny convo with juju on msn

Justyn says:
dont really wana say it but
I'M AWESOMEEEE
♪ esther says:
dont reli wana say it but
I"M AWESOMER
Justyn says:
you are only awesomer if u can come up with another sentence that contradicts itself
so for now
♪ esther says:
im awesome coz i came up with /me
Justyn says:
I'M AWESOMEEE
♪ esther says:
hehehehehee
Justyn says:
oh yeah? i came up with the chain of shouting
♪ esther says:
i came up with.. ummm... the nickname JUJU
HAH!
take that and that and that!!! *poke juju*
pokes*
Justyn says:
*super poke
i win
♪ esther says:
super duper poke
i win
Justyn says:
oh no
time to play a game called
who can create the longest super poke
♪ esther says:
=.=
Justyn says:
super duper ultra poke
♪ esther says:
super duper ultra uber poke
Justyn says:
super duper ultra uber leet poke
♪ esther says:
what's leet??!
Justyn says:
elite in gaming terms
hahaha
♪ esther says:
=.=......
super duper ultra uber leet mega poke
Justyn says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei poke
LOL this is soooo fun
♪ esther says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng poke
Justyn says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh poke
♪ esther says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang poke
Justyn says:
errr
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat poke
♪ esther says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome poke
Justyn says:
omg u stole my word
♪ esther says:
=P
Justyn says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful poke
♪ esther says:
powderful! hhaha
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful terrific poke
Justyn says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful terrific cool poke
i'm runing outta words
♪ esther says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful terrific cool superb poke
beat that juju!
Justyn says:
why u like no sweat
ishh
♪ esther says:
because IM AWESOME
Justyn says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful terrific cool superb great poke
♪ esther says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful terrific cool superb great fabulous poke
Justyn says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful terrific cool superb great fabulous brilliant poke
♪ esther says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful terrific cool superb great fabulous brilliant splendid poke
Justyn says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful terrific cool superb great fabulous splendid hax poke
♪ esther says:
what is HAX??
Justyn says:
hack?
hehe
♪ esther says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful terrific cool superb great fabulous splendid hax wahseh poke
huh reli? i dono
Justyn says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful terrific cool superb great fabulous splendid hax wahseh lol poke
♪ esther says:
eh lol doesnt count!
Justyn says:
super duper ultra uber leet mega wahlaowei geng fuyoh wahpiang hebat awesome powderful terrific cool superb great fabulous splendid hax wahseh shut up i win poke
HAHAHA
♪ esther says:
NOOOO i still more adjectives to use
Justyn says:
yhes
♪ esther says:
unfair
Justyn says:
like what?
♪ esther says:
like.. excellent.. wondeful..
ace
brilliant!
tremendous
marvellous
fantastic
superior
etc etc
Justyn says:
._.
♪ esther says:
im geng
HAHA say im awesome
Justyn says:
ok
im awesome
♪ esther says:
sien u
but ahaha this convo is so gonna be on my blog
XD
ive got a blog btw
Justyn says:
rly?

and if you read the whole thg, omgosh, you no life!

Get a life! XD

and I WON! take that juju!! and that! and that!! hahaha =p

Cute is indeed me! tee hee

2008-10-10T15:45:00.004+08:00

I have been wanting a new camera for those who didn't know.

I always had my list of preference:
1. Canon Ixus
2. Sony cybershot

But I recently changed my mind to cyn's geng camera. olympus 1010

BUT I CHANGED MY MIND TODAY. It was indeed love at first sight. heheheee

I WANT A CANON POWERSHOT E1!!!

IT IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE.

yabadoodah!

2008-10-10T14:47:00.002+08:00

I'm here! I'm here! I did not desert you blog T.T

So yes, I have received complaints on me not writing anything here. As I told them, I either didn't know what to write or yea no time.

BUT YES! I SHALL BLOG TODAY!! HOHOHOHO

My course mate just got attached, last week. o.O *nods* When I found out, I felt emo. Hahaha Which was weird. I was supposed to be happy for her, which I was and still am, but yea, I felt emo. Anyhoos, congrats cyn! May you be happy and happy always. <3

I have been thinking of what to blog about since I always don't know what to blog about. And I thought of something a few days ago! *light bulb! with the 'ding' sound effect*

After years of speaking the language english, I finally made a realization. A realization that many of you made many years ago. This so proves that Esther is in fact, SLOW. Very slow.

Don't laugh at me!!

I. finally. know. the. difference. between. slang. and. accent.

*GASPS!*

Yes, I never knew the difference. In fact, I used to think it's the same thing.

*DOUBLE GASP*

I know, I know. Lauyar english and s l o w.

BUT at least I know it now!

Better late than never right??

Hehehehehe.

Also, I made another realization! And I don't think this has anything to do with english. So yea, can't blame my slowness on this one!

I now know the difference or rather when to say, I like someone, or I am attracted to someone, or I would like to get to know someone better, or I love someone.

It now makes a whole lot sense to me. Cleared up a lot of confusion in my mind. :)

So yes, there you go. I blogged.

moo

2008-10-04T19:42:00.000+08:00

Silence killed the cow, when the steak flew in the car

coincidental?

2008-09-29T10:22:00.002+08:00

Some things are just so coincidental they blow my mind away. =/

Anyways, it's a sunny monday and what am I doing? Staying at home. Gah. How fun.

I feel the need to go out and bask in the sun and fun! =(

You see right, I have a problem with this blog, everytime I want to blog about something, that something doesn't exist!

Hmmm, maybe I should rename the title of this post an nonexistent post.

I thought that SFAS was a blast! =)

Tonight the (SUPAAPAA TRUPAAPAA) beams are gonna blind me
But I won't feel (SUPAAPAA TRUPAAPAA)
Like I always (SUPAAPAA TRUPAAPAA)
Cause somewhere in the crowd there's you

I am bored. I am esther. Esther is bored.

Sorry

2008-09-24T23:05:00.001+08:00

I will update, soon enough!

Happy mooncake festival!

2008-09-14T00:54:00.002+08:00

Ni wen wo ai ni you dou sen...

Yes, we should sing the moon song on this festive day and I want mooncake! Gah =/

Anyways, I had cell people over for dinner tonight and it was geng man. haha just like wah so fun..

One thing I just don't understand is .. well, we were watching I am Sam and I find it really sad. and like yea, cryable sad. So I expected everyone to cry. There was even a tissue box in the middle! In the end, I was the only one crying, and I already try my best to tahan you know.

I guess it's just me. Very cryable. Ha ha ha.

It's late, I should sleep soon. Good night people!

Guess what I saw?

2008-09-04T16:46:00.005+08:00

Today, I went to the store outside my house which I usually don't go, I opened the door. Guess what I saw?

It was hiding in between the ledges of the door. I saw..

I saw...

I SAW!!!

A REDBACK SPIDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOOOOO SCARRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

And it had an egg sac!! That means.... more scary baby redback spiders!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, according to Wikipedia, Redbacks are considered one of the most dangerous spiders in Australia.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH save me please!!!!!!!!!

=s =s =s =s

My number one! = Jesus

2008-08-29T13:51:00.003+08:00

I believe it's high time I write a proper blog post again. I think it has been quite a while since I last wrote one. The past few posts has been about the dance battle and Mike G.

Anyways, my sister finally remembered I have a blog. Well, she didn't remember, she found out. Silly her. I tell so many times liao I got blog but everytime she also forget. Somemore she's the first I add as reader. =.= Welcome Jiejie to read my blog!! Hope you will remember that I have one form now on.

And CZ! New reader. Shout out to you! Hello hello! :D

Haih, I really don't like my assignment. Super mafan please. :( Make me don't like trees only. SIEN!

My week break is coming to an end! :( So fast! I don't think I've achieved much this holiday!! Haih.

Seems like this post is another meaningless post. And yah, another thing. Lately, well not lately, but for my recent posts, I just can't seem to choose a proper title. All my titles are either = hello in different ways or just plain random. Well, aren't my posts always random. :D

Randometer shooting up up up! I am a randomizer! Wahaha.. I am always randomizing!

Last sunday, when I was on kids. Wah, the kids are soo cute! The things they say, gosh.

Example:
*When Teacher Reena was talking about rules.*
Teacher Reena: Does your mummy and daddy make rules at home?
Kids: Brush teeth before sleep, yada yada yada.
*randomly...*
Chris: I don't like vegies..
*O...K... Hahahaha*
*Teacher Reena is now talking about what happends if we don't obey rules*
T.Reena: Does your parents punish you when you don't obey rules at home?
Chris: Yes, last night, my mummy put me in the room.
Esther's thoughts: What kind of mysterious room is this?!?!
Teacher Reena: Oh, really? Why did mummy put you in the room?
Esther's thoughts: Wah, this room must be quite the scary.
Chris: Because I didn't eat my brocolli...
Wahahahahahahahhahahaha, cannot tahan man. he is so funny and cute.

Can't think of any other examples now, but this is one that I really remembered. They are so cute and funny and ah-dorable! :)

When the sun comes up and it goes back down
No I'm never gonna change, my love for you my God
My trust in You my God
As the time goes by and the seasons change
No I'm never gonna change, my love for you my God
My hope in You my God
Everybody now
I won't stop never gonna stop praising
Everyday you'll be my number one
Jesus Jesus
My number one!

Woohoo! Colourful randomful post, I likey!

Infinite xoxo

Now I see

2008-08-25T23:50:00.000+08:00

(Mike G)

Click here and here.

Just what else?

2008-08-24T22:14:00.001+08:00

Sigh.

Mike Gug

2008-08-24T15:55:00.002+08:00

I didn't write this post. It's from here.

In response to recent revelations regarding two Christian leaders, in different fields - Todd Bentley and Michael Guglielmucci - we've posted a special video presentation by Mal Fletcher.

Watch the clip below, and pass the link on to friends.

Mal adds: 'Some of the conversation on the web regarding Michael and Todd has been generating more heat than light.'

'Both situations are regrettable and both leaders will be held accountable in various ways. And while there are legitimate questions to be answered in both cases, what's most important here is learning how to respond in the right way and learning what we can from these sad and regrettable situations.'

'I don't know Todd personally, but I have known Michael for many years - and love him still.'

'Hopefully this clip and the editorial released earlier (click here) will help people who obviously and understandably feel disappointed and even angry to come to terms with situations like these.'

Hm, didn't know about the news on Todd Bentley.
This is a good response to what's happening now.

disappointment?

2008-08-22T00:42:00.003+08:00

I'm sure everyone has heard about Mike Gug faking his cancer. Well, if you haven't, click here.

I really don't know what to make out of it. Of course I'm disappointed. But who am I to judge?

Hmph. Don't know ah really. I went to check out many comments from people. People are discussing whether they should still sing the song healer. One even said that all his money is wasted on buying PS's albums with a lot of mike gug songs in it, etc. Most commented that we should all pray for him.

Few thoughts I had:
1. WHY oh why did he do it?
2. The song.
- Yes, we can still sing it because well, he didn't sing about his 'cancer', he sang about God our healer. And that fact will stand true.
- No, we don't know what spirit he had when he wrote that song, might be a wrong spirit. And this wrong spirit might affect us through his song.
3. The people that were saved through his 'testimony' and 'song'. How dishearten would they be? I pray that they would not turn back to their old ways and even more be against Christianity!
4. Him and his family. Must be a tough time for him. I can't even imagine how guilty and dirty he must feel now.

I really don't know what to think.

I stumbled upon one comment that someone made:

Philippians 1:18 (New International Version)
"But what does it matter? The important thing is that in every way, whether from false motives or true, Christ is preached. And because of this I rejoice."

I really don't know what to make out of this situation.

God, please help us.

anieng

2008-08-15T10:46:00.004+08:00

I haven't blogged in ages. M A L A S

So yes, I am in uni now and I didn't bring my phone today. Wahliao, I think it's like so mafan lo. =/

I think I never blog coz I also nothing to write about. Like now...

...

Um, I crave cake.

Random yes but yah, I feel like eating cake.

I'm bored..

Sienness!!

Go ACDC

2008-08-10T18:22:00.001+08:00

M&M. gah.

ACDC should have won.

sisterhood <3

2008-08-03T20:48:00.002+08:00

I started this whole sisterhood thingie going on with myself a few days ago. I felt so touched by sisterly love from close girl friends.

Tonight, I'm touched deeply by the other kind of sisterhood. The kind from my own sister. I feel loooooveed!

Sisterhood, it's wonderful.

I love my sisters.

<3

I love my cell

2008-08-01T23:25:00.007+08:00

I just had my first cell and I tell you, my mandarin is definitely going to improve this sem. Right sara o? and Jenn?? hahaha but all is good.

I'm excited for this new sem, excited to be with this new bunch of people, excited by all those china people coming in, excited of what's yet to come, excited, just simply excited. But at the same time, I'm nervous. But gah, the excitement has now made the nervousness seem pitiful. (Hm? What kind of weird sentence is that?) Anyways, putting the england aside. Yes, I declare now with faith that it is going to be a good semester. As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord!

But I do miss my sem 1 cell. I have got to say, out of my past three cells, I love that cell the most. I'm going to miss each one of them. Every memories. Every singing sessions, dancing sessions, food sessions, nonsense-talk sessions, and, everything lah! :( It's the cell where I feel most at home, most comfortable, where I could really click with each and everyone of them. Where I felt loved, where I didn't feel left out, where I really could be just myself, where I was understood, cared for, loved... :(

The photo up there is my sem 1 cell. Our PJ night! Aah, memories.

Love you guys! <3

p.s. It's august already! Super fast please

like duh

2008-07-31T21:11:00.003+08:00

I feel b o r e d. I feel like watching a movie. My sister's watching a movie now with her coursemates. Haih..

This supp paper has made me not able to go out at all!!! Super sien ness at work here.

So yah, decided to put up little blue ocky. Cute ey?

Today I met up with Pete Kinny (PK)! PK is my geology lecturer and we never really liked him. A bit the-scary and we think a bit the-racist and a bit the-notnice. Blergh. Anyways, one-to-one in his office ler! How scary is that? But yah, all turned out well, wasn't THAT scary after all and I realized that his mohawk looks super weird now. Like it's... curly.. Hahahaha

I started off this sem thinking that my timetable is really lousy. (I wanted to say crappy but I have decided to try my best to not use that word! So, stop me if you hear me saying that word, which I will!) Yah, it's like.. so packed some days, so free some days. But I have come to love it! It's like no long breaks in between! Well, except for the days that physics lecture isn't on. But other than that, timetable's good. :)

LOL my sister's hyper course mates just barged (sorta) into the room to say hi to me. Talk about random.

Have I told you about how I got my supp? It's really a miracle. Since I told most of you, I shall not repeat it again. :)

Hm, you know, comparing my blog to others, like chris's, jenn's, sara o's, and yea, other blogs that I stalk quite frequently, I think I share more bits of my life compared to them. I think it's coz I just type whatever that comes to my mind. So yah, like now. Hmph. Don't know whether it's a good or bad thing. Well, at least my blog's private.

Talking about private, ahahha, aku teringat penguin dalam movie madagascar yang bername private juga. Comelnya! Keke, I want to watch the upcoming madagascar! I should do a movie night of my all time favourite cartoons!! Haih, can't wait till this supp is over.

Ooh, I've got a new housemate! And I really like her. :D She's very the-talkative and very the-friendly which is very the-good.

Hahaha, sorry about all 'the-', it's annoying yes but I can't help it.

Ok la, shall stop here. I realized my blog's really boring and quiet lately. Boring - I never post photos also.. Quiet - only those few same people got leave stuff on the chat box thingie. Ohwells..

Oh ya, my sis's course mate said this to me: 'geology rocks'.

Like duh.

=S

2008-07-27T20:07:00.002+08:00

Uni's starting tml and I'm dreading it. Really don't feel like going back. Haih ohwells.

I realized that korean ballads have the ability to make me feel REALLY emo..... like now............... If I understand the lyrics, wah I also don't know how.. hahaha......

*emo-ing*

Anyways, uni, garh, really don't want to go back. When I think uni now, I think busy. ='( =S

And yea, I want to go back in time. For many reasons. Well, don't we all..

=(

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='(

=_(

=|

=)

I'm fine.

Bah. Random betul.

the monkey's 19th

2008-07-27T18:14:00.002+08:00

Someone's 19 today! :)
Happy birthday karen dear.
Too bad i'm not back in miri to celebrate with u. :(
You BETTER go out celebrate with abby.
Or else you'll dissapoint me and laine!
Love u too much.
Hugs!

<3

me and my blue octopus

2008-07-21T23:35:00.004+08:00

Hi.
I've got an octopus plushie.
It is blue in colour.
I think it's supposed to be a finger puppet.
I really like my blue octopus.
I think my blue octopus is super duper cute.
:)

and I believe with all my heart..
that my blue octopus likes me too!

ka-ler-ful

2008-07-19T20:02:00.003+08:00

Aloha!

If you haven't realized, I have been blogging faithfully for the past month and all my posts have been random with a capital R.

Anyways, I just finished baking a vanilla cake with colourful hundreds and thousands! So pretty please. Hehe :)

Yum yum.

Today has been a day consisting of a lot of driving and meeting old family friends. I drove 2.5 hours kay!? Hahaha, but good for me la, slowly logging my 25 hours.

*goes away and comes back with a different mood*

My house! Yes, the same topic. My housemates! Yes, yes, you can skip this paragraph if you want to. I think I know who too is the one! And I shall not mention names. Who knows she's someone's friend's sister's boyfriend's sister's best friend. Scary. But Yes!! I am so angry!! Once again I shall say this, at least clean your own things la wei! Who do you think you are? Queen of the house ah. You think you pay rent I don't so you can don't care about cleaning stuff at all la. You think this is my house so I should be responsible of cleaning the house la. Ok la, I can clean la but at least clean your own plates la.. Garh, I shall not continue. *calms down* :( :/

And my cheese is gone. Garh.

*stops blogging and listens to happy songs to calm down*

I am ok now! :) Talk about mood changing blog posts. heh heh

Anyways, my cell last sem (sem1) is going to set up a stall at the upcoming zion food fest!
1. Please do come to the food fest
2. Please support my cell's stall!
Hehe

Now, onto a different topic!

Changes, they are inevitable! I have always always said that. And yes, I need to deal with another change in my life this year. It's definitely a sad one but I'm hoping that it'll turn out to be a happy and great change in the end. Challenges challenges!!! Garh!! :/ I'm afraid I won't be able to face this challenge! I'll need lots of grace of help from God. God, help me!

I'm so happy that my pretty cake is almost done! I hope it'll still be pretty after finish baking.

Pretty pretty kalerful cake! :)

p.s. Sorry about the mood swings :p

hello

2008-07-18T16:18:00.004+08:00

I am so bored atm. People on msn are ignoring me. Maybe I should watch another movie. SIEN-ness. Somemore today's weather is terrible. Super duper windy to the maxx please. Cannot tahan just now when I went out.

Anyways, this post is another one of those random post.

I was so bored just now that I suddenly took all my skirts out and looked and tried them on. They are so pretty! Heh heh. I realized just now that I hardly wore any of my skirts this year, it is so sad.

Aah, finally, the mia queen is replying me on msn. Wahliao, now two people replying. What is this? Just when I decided to occupy myself with blogging people come talk to me. SIEN-ness

Ohwells.

Ok la, I'll blog another time.

:)

random~

2008-07-13T16:55:00.005+08:00

Hello hello!

How are you? I am good. :)

Anyways, I've heard that I've changed! (?) Have I really? Hm, maybe I have. Maybe I haven't. Have I changed a lot? Dramatically? Or just changed - generally? Hahahaha. What's your verdict?

Haih, my holidays are over. Boohoo. I think my hols were spent on watching stuff. After I think 13 movies, 1 manga, 1 japanese series, 1 american series and 1 korean series, I have got to say that korean is still the best. Aah, I watched 'coffee prince' last night (yes yes, I know, very late), but it was sooo good loh. Aiyoh, I love it. Love it love it looove it! Hahaha. :) It's soo, so.. different from the usual korean drama! And even though yes, there is someone who has cancer in the drama and yes it's the lovey kind and yes there's crying in it, but it's still different loh! Must watch!! Hehe thanks Sara for sharing. :) love you, my japanese/korean series provider!!!

And that jap/korean series provider of mine is leaving Perth soon!! T.T At least it's only for half a year. :) I'll miss you. Haha, i realized we have quite a lot in common, and haha, we can click quite well, like our jap/korean talks. And and! HAHA the very random talk we had today about xiaxue!!! I can't believe you read her blog too!! Hahahaha. *Hi-5* :)

Anyways, the reason I say my hols are over even though I still have 2 weeks of no school is because orientation is starting tml! Which brings me to say that, come help out in passion booth ya! :)

La la lee dum~

Today, while going to church, I was in the car and listening to the radio. I have learnt a fact!
If you drink 2 cups of coffee a day with half a teaspoon of sugar for a year, you would need to spend 70 hours on the treadmill (i think) to burn off the fats accumulated!
Scary huh?

Oh yea, if anyone would want to provide me with series to watch, korean/jap/american, be free to do so!! You can contact Esther at 04-30108380 or email her at esysn@hotmail.com! Thanks in advance. Hehe ;)

ticklish

2008-07-12T23:13:00.002+08:00

:) I can't stop smiling. Hahaha and it's for the silliest reasons.

It tickles my heart.

Don't ask me what, lazy explain. Hahaha nothing that important that will bother you.

Today is Thursday!

2008-07-10T11:29:00.003+08:00

So, after my mandurah trip (which was awesome), I haven't gone out at all! Well, I have, but only for meetings! Going out means going to have fun etc. Well, it's because: 1, I've been down with the cold. And blergh, it has been nasty. *reaches for tissue box* 2, I've been spending too much and no, I still don't have a job. 3, No mood go out ah, I look out and the weather also so gloomy, lazy to go out.

:) It's been stay-home esther!

I miss home and friends at home. I want to go home! *inserts buble's home*

I feel bad you know, that since the hols have started, I haven't been out with my coursemates! not even once! Sorry cyn, sorry jun. Esp to cyn! Some more I said I will go watch movie and eat taka with her. Aiyoyo, I am a bad friend. BUT! At least she's occupied with a job.

Aah, on to more serious things, (my blog ever serious one meh?), hmmm, actually, yea, no serious things. Just yea, people have been asking how come they never see me online. Well, it's because, 1, I appear offline most of the time. 2, Why do I appear offline you may ask? 3, It's cause, I don't feel like chatting/ too lazy. 4, So, if I really do want to chat, I'll msn you first. :)

Next week is O-week!! Everyone, come help out at passion booth OK?! I will see you there! and no 'buts'!! COME! We, the workers, need to be ready for the harvest field. :)

Owh yea, driving, hmm, I'm having my test next week. Please do pray for me, because I am super duper not confident. And being not confident really does pull you down. I need confidence! And, Um, to be able to drive well!! :) I want to pass fast fast. And all the lessons have been digging a huge hole in my purse, don't want a bigger hole to appear. :)

So, yes, this post is just one of those posts where esther just blabs randomly.

Love you all

Man of great faith

2008-07-04T14:52:00.001+08:00

retard alert

2008-07-02T15:53:00.004+08:00

I love you dear :)

On a job hunt

2008-06-29T19:31:00.005+08:00

I feel very full now.

Anyways, just felt like writing something here. I realized that, after you stop blogging for a short while, people just stop visiting your blog. Hahaha, I don't know whether that's a good or bad thing.

Something random:

Friendships. What are they to you?

The effort of keeping the friendship is MUCH much harder than the effort of starting that friendship.

I've been thinking about that for a loooong time.

People really do come in and out of your lives. Friends we make, it's hard keeping in touch ey. Time, is like, so limited. And to actually 'cut out' your time for each and every friend, to catch up with. Haih, I don't know. How about close friends? More time needs to be allocated for them. Well, naturally, more time WILL be allocated for them. Then, how about those you just can't find the time to catch up with? You just sorta just, get not-that-close anymore? I don't like when that happens, I really don't. Haih.

I qoute, the famous Sara Ong once said, 'We don't just terminate friendships.' Unqoute. :)

I shall stop blabbering. Blame it on the cold weather.

On a more happier note, I am going ice skating tml! OO yea, hahaha. Exciting much! :D

Oh oh, I just realized something random. Tone and note. They have the same 4 letters! Just re-arrange them. Ah, so cool and random!

randomizing

2008-06-28T12:48:00.005+08:00

I just realized I haven't blogged in ages. Haha. Been to lazy laaa. I have even been to lazy to go on msn to chat. Just don't feel like it.

So, the past week had been AWESOME. With suern over for the whole week, aah, bliss. :)

We've done a one-week-movie-marathon. Hahaha, we watched 11 movies in um, 5 days I think. That's an average of 2 movies per day. Crazy. I prolly watched more movies this week compared to um, the last 2 sems added together. Yes yes, I watch very few movies, sad I know. :) I miss suern.

Ah yes, I just realized I am in desperate need of a new camera. An ixus to be exact. actually, a sony cybershot would be good too. gah :(

Anyhoos, I am now looking for extra funds to support the esther-fund. If you would want to kindly donate to this fund, just email esther at esysn@hotmail.com or call her at 04 30108380. HAhahaha. But yes, just FYI, esther is also trying hard at putting in funds, SHE IS TRYING TO FIND HER JOB BUT NO ONE SEEMS TO WANT TO HIRE HER! sad sad. Haih... Pray hard people, I need a job, a good one!

Haih, a week of my precious hols have gone by (SO FAST!). Really got to use the remaining weeks well. huhu

Um, so yes, I don't know what else to write.

Erm, hello, how are you? I'm fine, Thank you.

It's so cold. Brrrrr

Change is inevitable

2008-06-21T15:12:00.001+08:00

Hi.
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I've changed.
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Have you?

2008-06-14T09:09:00.001+08:00

Aaah! I never expected this! BUT! M&M is back yo!

They're good, must have spent a lot of money on this. hahahaha

wahlieu geng. Somemore 'to be continued'

infinite xoxo

*smiles

2008-06-02T11:45:00.012+08:00

teaser :P

Heya pepos.

Yes yes, I know I haven't been blogging, but it doesn't matter coz there aren't that many people reading this blog anyways. hahaha

So yes, I have thought of stuff to blog but just been feeling too lazy / occupied to do it.

This post is going to be R A N D O M with a capital R.

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My parents are here. That means I get to eat good food! woo hoo! But that also means that I can't concentrate as much on my studies (not like I can concentrate that much if left by myself) BUT STILL! hahaha But it's good having them over.

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Last saturday, went to UWA service for Ps. Emmanuel (he died and rose again - went to heaven for 7 days). It was good. I guess what I learnt from his sharing was that there are 4 groups of people that cannot go into heaven:
1. Those who are not borned again
- This I am sure we all understand. If you do not confess that you are sinner and believe that He is your Lord and Saviour, how is HE able to accept YOU?
2. Those who are borned again but don't forgive
- He is only able to forgive you if you forgive others (there's a verse on this but I can't remember where is it)
- In the Lords prayer :: 'forgive us as we forgive those who trespass against us'
- It is IMPORTANT to forgive
- This really spoke to me. I do struggle in forgiving certain people. I need to let go and forgive. HE has forgiven me over and over and has came down to earth and became the GREATEST sacrifice for ME.
3. Those who are borned again but don't give 10% in their tithe and offering
- Malachi 3:7 :: it is written here that if we don't tithe we will be cursed.
- Tithe :: open the doors of heaven (for blessings). That's why we do see those people who are not borned again but are faithful in their tithing that are blessed (on earth)
- We need to be BORNED AGAIN and TITHE to receive blessings both on earth and in heaven!
- IMPORTANT to tithe
4. Those who are borned again and made a vow with the Lord but fail to execute it quickly
- Eccl 5:4-5 :: we shouldn't take too much time in fulfilling a vow that we have made with the Lord
- God is angry at foolish people and us not fulfilling our vow fast makes us foolish people
- Judges 11:30-40
- I think this spoke to me too. There are times I make a vow with the Lord, but I fail to do it.

HEAVEN IS SO REAL!

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There are many other stuff I want to share here too on what I've learnt, but nah, won't write it all down. :D
Maybe another time, after my exams.

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I believe it is very important to tell your loved ones how much they mean to you once in a while. Haha, maybe coz I myself need to be reaffirmed once in a while.

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So yes. I tend to think a lot. I think it runs in my family. My sister thinks a lot. My mum thinks a lot. Sometimes, I think it's not a good thing. Actually, most of the time I think it's not a good thing. Of course, thinking is good but too much of a good thing tends to become a bad thing. So yes, thinking a lot --> thinking TOO much.
At times, I just want to stop thinking about something! It's so annoying! and it does irritate me!
Haih, feel so sien.

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I believe that changes are inevitable.
Hey, I think that is so cool lo. 'CHANGE IS INEVITABLE' Hahahahaha. I always say that to myself lol coz hey! how cool is that!!!!
Anyhoos (I think 'anyhoos' is cool too!), yea, change, people are always changing. Everytime! Everyday!
So yes, change is inevitable.
It may be good. It may be bad. But it is inevitable.

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Oh yes. There's this one thing that the african pastor said that is just stuck in my head now.
JOY JOY 24 HOURS!!! hehehe yes I think it is very important to have joy 24 hours!
Me and sarah had a small convo during the sermon. What if we go to heaven, and there isn't time in heaven? Then JOY JOY how long le? So yes, we concluded that it will be: JOY JOY ETERNITY!!
*sings I've got the joy joy joy joy down in my heart! WHERE? down in my heart! WHERE?! down in my heart! I've got the joy joy joy joy down in my heart! WHERE? Down in my heart TO STAY!
I need to make my joy stay! :D

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I think.... I need to stop blogging.
I've been facebook-ing and blogging for quite a while already.
I've gotta get my head in the books *sings to the tune of 'get ur head in the game - high sch musical rofl

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So yes, this might be my last post till, um, after exams? It might not be. Heh, depends on how random I feel.
( I didn't expect this post to be so long! hehehe *bangga betul )

:D so peeps, JOY JOY 24 HOURS!
(after re-viweing this post, this red/green bit looks so christmas-y)

I HAVE SUCH A BIG NOSE!

infinite xoxo

They ROCK!

2008-05-19T20:18:00.003+08:00

I really am very blessed with these two course mates.
Who could have asked for better course mates?

JUN
Even though we were in the same class last year, we never really talked. Till this year, since we're kinda like course mates and have so many classes together, we got quite close. Haha. I really enjoy being with him loh. Makes me laugh so much with his '我要拿石头丢他!!' Hahaha and now I use that so much too. Hahaha, yealah, I really like talking to him lah. :)

CYN
Aah, my teman for everything!!! Every class. every test. every assignment. Thank God I met you and thank God you changed course!!! I don't know who else would be my good good friend in this course besides you. Hehe, I like talking to her too! hahaha :) Yay to 2 and a half more years of being together in the same course!

:) Friends are truly God-given.

infinite xoxo

Thanks for the memories

2008-05-11T20:41:00.008+08:00

I saw this note on a friend's facebook notes and thought that it was pretty interesting. So, I'm going to do it here. :)

Because people walk in and out of your life, but some things just stay.

Leave one memory (in the comment box) that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

infinite xoxo

People with names that start with 'E'

2008-05-11T18:50:00.004+08:00

Last monday, I went to canning coll to sell some of my books. So I thought, why not give my juniors there a visit? Kekeke.

So yes, I met up with esther siong (my evil twin supposed to be) and emandy. And and, I met another esther! HAHA! We should form an esther club. Esthers shall dominate and rule this world! *evil laugh*..

Esther siong and Emandy

The Esthers
Kok, Siong and Yew

Oh oh and I had:-
1. Chips with gravy! - We always had this last time
2. Muffin (raspberry and white choc) - Me and suern's fav. We always had our muffin breaks together. hahha

Aaaah, sweet canning memories, i miss! =)

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Oh yea, last night I went out for dinner at the city and guess who I met?! ANNABELLE!!! I was super shocked. I think she was too! Fancy meeting her there. Oh oh, and then we saw kristi!! Hahaha, it was like a mini canning gathering, hm or rather, a mini econs class gathering. LOL

infinite xoxo

I'm tagged!

2008-05-07T22:44:00.006+08:00

Chris tagged me! I like being tagged hahaha. thanks chris! =D

The Rules

Link to your tagger and post these rules.
List eight (8) random facts about yourself.
Tag eight people at the end of this post and list their names.Let them know they’ve been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blogs.

Random fact #1
I'm NOT a korean wannabe. People just think I look korean, that's why I find it fun to trick people to think I'm korean.

Random fact #2
I love baking. Haha, I hardly baked anything back in Miri. I didn't even bake much last year. Only started baking more towards the end of the year when I had a lot of free time.

Random fact #3
I never had a mobile phone back in Miri, only had one when I was in Perth. My parents didn't think I needed one. Haha now thinking about it, I don't think I needed one then too.

Random fact #4
My chinese name is 晓宁 (siau ning). I used to only like people calling me esther (I went to a chinese primary school, most people called me siau ning). But now, I suddenly really like my chinese name. =D I'm trying to revive it. Hahaha but I doubt it'll ever be revived.

Random fact #5
My family is coming over during their hols! I am super super duper excited to the maxx!!! =D

Random fact #6
I tend to say 'sorry' even when I don't need to. I don't mean that I always think I'm wrong. I mean, nvm, I don't feel like explaining. I mean...., garh, I don't know what I mean.

Random fact #7
I love Syenite rock. Love love love love it!! Because it's PINK in colour! I heart syenite! Click here to see the rock.

Random fact #8
Thinking about it again, I think me tricking so many people that I'm korean has made me A BIT of a korean wannabe. But just A BIT ok?!

I wanna tag: i don't know who i wana tag

infinite xoxo

ROFL

2008-05-06T19:15:00.004+08:00

I would have to say that Jason Cruz watches the most youtube vids. He's crazy really.

Anyhoos, I got these videos from his blog.

Like how did he even manage to find these?

I'm not a Batman fan. Neither am I an ironman fan. But you've got to admit that this vid is pretty funny. LOL

Who's going to use facebook after this vid? LOL I still am.
This is BBC on facebook:-

dance battle continued-

2008-05-06T17:24:00.005+08:00

omg. so good. so good.

The next dance battle video is up. Click here to watch the first two dance battle videos.

ACDC -
Chris Scott, Luigi Rosada, Harry Shum Jr, Flea Rock, Legacy, BShaw, Moy, Casper, Trent Dickens, Lucas Raynaud, JD MCelroy, Mihran, Jon Scott, Sean Scott, Kamile, Lil John, Flipz, Madd Chad, Dave Scott, Kristi Crader, Reakt, K.O., Plik Plok, Hok, Lacey, Black Thomas, Telisha Shaw, Liat Baruch, Kelli Exum, Jamal Sims, Tommy J. Styles, Reina, Brianna Evigan, Robert Hoffman, Adam Shankman, Adam Sandler, Chris Brown, Brittany Snow, Amanda Bynes, Diana Ross, Elijah Kelley, Evan Ross, NLT, Brandon T Jackson, Lindsay Lohan, Jabbawockeez

They've got my favourites on my crew! - Chris Brown and Jabbawockeez

It's over M&M, you just got served. ;)

ignited // burning with passion

2008-05-05T16:44:00.002+08:00

2 weeks ago, I went to the passion 'ignite' camp.

Things I got out of the camp:

1. relationships - First off, I really thank God that most of my cell members went to the camp. We were one of the cells which had the most people going for camp! 3 cheers for us. =) I certaintly feel that after this camp, each one of us had closer relationships. After going through all those fun times together. All the photos esp the jumping ones, going to the beach, watching shooting stars (although sara ong and I didn't get to see it!), praying at the beach.. just being together. I am really thankful to God for placing me in this cell with each one of these lovely, wonderful people. =) I love you!

2. breakthrough - This time, I was made a camp leader and as a camp leader, you not only need to lead a group but you need to lead the morning devotions as well. I have a problem with words, and still do. I tend to cause my words to stumble upon each other and yea, you get the picture. So i was really nervous and all. But thankfully, I was able to do the devotions quite well. All glory go to Him! =)

3. my potter's hand - I went to the camp wanting to receive something for camp, and I did. I didn't realized what it was until the morning when we were supposed to leave the camp site. The whole time from the first day of camp till the night before we left, I kept praying, asking that He would tell me something. Tuesday night, Ps. Josh Moyo came and preached on 'Don't miss your chance'. So, that night I really prayed to Him and told Him that I did not want to miss my chance. I really wanted Ps. Josh to pray for me but he didn't!! After that session, I went up to him and asked for prayer. (note: I did not tell him my name) He prayed this for me: You will be like Queen Esther. You will be like a star like her. You will have many mordecais on your way and He will be your strong tower.. You will have the courage like Queen Esther. I was overwhelmed. But then, I still didn't see the big picture. The next day, after devotions, I suddenly realized what He wanted to tell me. About a month plus ago, God had been telling me that He is the potter's hand and I am the clay. He is going to break me, mold me and make me again. Around that time too, I had a dream in which I had an evil spirit following me. In that same dream, my mum rebuked the evil spirit for me. So yes, that was my breaking process. The camp is my molding process where I am ignited once again. Now, He is to make me new again and I need to continue burning on with passion! Praise the Lord! =)

So yes, I finally blogged about camp. Will post some photos when I get them from Wilson/hannah.

It's all about Jesus.

infinite xoxo

I'm googleable!

2008-05-02T11:56:00.006+08:00

I can't get enough of myself. So much till I frequently google my own name.
Yes, I google myself.

and no, I don't mean esther yew hsiao ning you silly donkeys.
Esther yew siau ning is original ok?!
Haha, the other time I googled esther yew siau ning (end of last year), pauline's blog came up. Tee hee.
and the other other time I googled esther yew siau ning (quite long ago I think), some SPM thing came up. -.-
But yes, this time, there wasn't anything specifically original.
So, I googled esther yew.

Tee hee. I'm famous you see! I'm googleable! *beams!

But don't worry people, I google your names too!
Stalker me! Evil laugh!

infinite xoxo

random ramblings

2008-04-30T21:52:00.001+08:00

Today I’m in a typie mood. Hah, if you even know what that means. Seems like I don’t feel lazy to type anymore. That’s a good thing. But yes, as you read from the title, today’s post is going to be about random ramblings that I’m going to have. It’s going to be a long post, I think. I’m just going to type whatever comes to mind. Mind you, it’s going to be very unorganized.

Anyhoos.. haha. I think anyhoos sounds so cute. So yesh, anyhoos. Toady was supposed to be a nice nice day. Well, it WAS a nice day. My test went surprisingly well. Yes, some of you who know that I’ve been taking lots of tests lately, it’s cause I don’t have a final exam for my chem unit. So I have all these little little tests and I tell you it’s not easy to pass. Actually it is but yes haha I said that coz the passing mark is 80%. I’ve only done 4 so far and phew thank God I’ve passed all so far. =D hehe. Like I get quite stressed one every time I hand it up to be marked (it’s marked on the spot), esp when there is a little queue. Waiting in the line just makes me get more nervous! But yes, today I really thought that ‘oh no, I think I’m going to fail this one.’ But, I met a really nice marker who marked me nicely and yes, I answered most of the questions correctly! I felt so happy after that. =)

Then, at 12pm, I had my first group meeting. Remember that post I wrote on S? Yep we didn’t meet up til yesterday. I was quite bummed about them not making any meetings on Monday and Jun said this to me, ‘Cute doesn’t mean useful.’ Sien that guy hahaha. But yes, we had a meeting today. And it went surprisingly well too! Like, initially I was quite nervous. (hahaha) I don’t know le, the other guy, when I talked to him yesterday, he made me feel stupid. Seriously. But thank God, today was good. And good good good. =) and I still think he’s cute even though Andre and Leon would wish to defer.

Meeting up with people after that was good too. =) So yes, I was happy the whole day. Then went to karawara with Cindy. Was supposed to go find jenn ( I want free bbt!! Hehe). I mean I did. I dropped by mikasa. I didn’t know the sushi’s were on special -.- or else I wouldn’t have eaten at subway. But yea, dropped by there. Saw that she was busy. Saw her new manager (new right?) and bought a honeydew pudding/jello thing and went to get bbt for myself.

So yes, I was happy. I still am actually. But a few sien stuff happened.

I came home and yea of course I came home, where else would I go? Lol.. anyhoos.. came home right. Then saw the pile of unwashed dishes. Note, this is not an uncommon scene in my house. So I felt SUPER sien that my housemates still don’t want to clean at least their own plates. (thank God they don’t read my blog). Like I mean, I understand la, you leave there one day, even two days I’m ok. Coz hey, maybe you’re busy or something. Like ya, that’s understandable. But you leave it there for don’t know how many days. Garh. Cannot take it… Haih, at least someone washed her plates tonight. Don’t know la. A bit sien haaaiiihhhh. BUT!! BUT!! I still love my housemates ok/!?! Me being mad at them doesn’t mean their not nice. I don’t want to portray them as that. Coz they really are a lovely bunch of people and I do love them. =)

Haha, as I said earlier, today I’m in a typie mood, which basically means that I really feel like typing. Haha, explains the really long post. LOL. I wrote a long email to my darlings. Replied jas’s fb msg and I wrote longer than usual. Geng or not? Hahaha somemore I post so long.

Hm, speaking bout Jas. I think he’s a really fun person to talk to. So funny and can talk so much one. And just to make this clear before any one asks. NO he doesn’t like me. And NO I don’t have a crush on him either. But yes, I find him a very nice and fun guy. Mr. Korea hahaha.

Yep. Another sad thing happened tonight. I was eating rice then my bonded retainers broke. Like so ranoeihtbaefhaliufga*&*&@#^$. Haih. Felt so sad about it. Yea, it’s quite a big deal to me laaa.. and it broke!!!! Some more I was eating rice only.. haaaiiihhh rice so soft can break metal one? maybe he's right, it's the ice cream's faults. but no la, still think the theory you gave was weird weird weird. hahha silly donkey u.

Anyhoos, I’ve got A LOT of things to prepare for tml and I’m here blogging. Hhaha how smart esther. Nvm, esther IS very smart one hahaha. Today in group meeting they also say I’m the smarter one out of the group loh. Hahaha coz like I take the harder math and chem compared to the two of them. That’s why I’m smarter. -.-

I think I’m random. Not think. I AM random. Jenn jenn says it’s contagious. She’s infected with some of it. The DR disease – Dory randomness disease hahahahhahaa. Beware people! You might be infected with it SOON! EVIL LAUGH!!

Oh yea, me feeling typie doesn’t mean I’m not lazy. I’m still lazy lazy lazy lazy. I’m a lazy bum and it’s not good. I even find it hard to wake up these days. Lazy lazy lazy. NOT GOOD!

OK la, I should start doing some work.. Still feeling quite bummed about the retainers thing.

Infinite xoxo

Go away u lazy worms

2008-04-29T16:17:00.003+08:00

I haven't been replying emails (sorry dears and mama, papa and sa). I haven't been blogging (fire didn't die down ok jenn? hahaha). I haven't replied jas's fb msg (sorry too).

I have been lazy lazy lazy. Too lazy to type. Sometimes, I even feel too lazy to chat.

NOT GOOD.

Lazy worms, go away! shoo shooo!

and your verdict is..

2008-04-27T22:20:00.001+08:00

I DO look like dory. T.T
I'm a fish..

the biggest online dance battle

2008-04-26T14:00:00.001+08:00

The biggest online dance battle on you tube.

by ACDC and MnM

ACDC (Adam/Chu Dance Crew)
Luigi, Chris Scott, Harry Shum, Legacy, Moy, Flea Rock, Flipz, Milky, Casper, Chopper, Corn Bread, Kinto, Britain, Deuce, Free, Ebony, Raquel, H20, Flat Top

Miley and Mandy (MnM)
Starring: Milez with a Z and Manderz with a Z
Directed by: Cole Walliser
Choreographer: Teresa Espinosa
Produced by: Alison Faulk, Teresa Espinosa
Additional Choreography: Keeley Kaukimoce, Ashlee Nino, Aja George, Killafornia
Dancers: Shonnie, Aja, Ashley Nino, Maryss from Paris, Keeley Kaukimoce, Katie Orr, Alison Faulk, Teresa Espinosa, DJ Angie Vee, Osea Kaukimoce, The Gayliens
B-Boys: Steelo, Do Knock, Spee-d, Wonder, Energetic, Lil Rock, Crumbs, Lil Bob, Nabil, G-Wiz, Koncept, Peetthasho, Friction, RockSick, AngeliVex
B-Girl: Shorty
Thank You: Joel Viertel, Andreas Burgess, Mora Stephens, Cory Graves
Special Appearances by: Channing Tatum (!!), Jenna Dewan, Michael Pena, Popin' Pete,Mammie

ACDC's challenge

MnM's challenge

Camp camp camp!

2008-04-20T16:09:00.000+08:00

I'm excited!! \[^.^]/

Did i really say that?

2008-04-17T23:25:00.007+08:00

I still can’t believe I said that.

I had my communication skills class today. I usually really hate that class because it's quite pointless and there's that green-shirt ang mo girl that I don't like. grrr.

Rewind -

There are a few guys I think are cute in geology and there's one that's in my CS class. I used to tell Cindy that I thought he was cute. So, yah.

Fast Forward-

Anyways, today I was late for class by ten minutes. And once I entered class, Helen (my tutor) was handling out name tags. It’s like in Kindy where you get name tags, those sticker types, so that you can look at someone and go, ‘Ah, so she’s Esther.’ So, my sticker was given out the moment I walked in class. Obviously, I was very blur and didn’t know what was going on, so I gave cindy the ‘huh?’ look. The first thing she said to me when I sat down was, ‘Esther, (is Chinese) you are in the same group as the guy you think is cute.’ But yes, I was still very blur. Then, we broke up into our groups.

I was in a group of 3. The other guy didn’t show up for class so it was just me and S. We had some warm up game thingy which was actually quite fun. Hmm, or maybe it seemed fun coz I was doing it with S. Haha! But yea, he was friendly and talked to me. After the game, Helen asked us to talk and discuss and evaluate how our group was in group work and how we are in a group etc etc.

Here’s the highlight of that day! *drumroll

As I had bad experiences with green-shirt ang mo girl, I really didn’t want this group to, you know, be like that. [She's super racist one, garh] Some more this one is gonna work together and yea gonna have marks one. I don’t want to repeat this somewhat useless unit. So, I summoned all my courage and told S, ‘Hey, I just want to make one point. As I’ve been here for a year plus, and I have had some experiences working in a group with Aussies. I realized that some Aussies tend to leave Asians out of the discussion and I really am not comfortable with it. So I would really appreciate it if you guys don’t do this in this group.’ S was like, ‘Oh no no, did I do that?? No? No, no, I won’t do that. Don’t worry.’

*BEAMS!

Hehehe, So yea,

1. 1. I’m in the same group as S!

2. 2. I made my point clear!

3. 3. I'm starting to heart CS! =D

Esther is gila/bored/whatever la.

2008-04-17T12:08:00.004+08:00

Esther doesn't like it raining when she needs to go out the house.

Esther is in love with the korean dance version of amazing grace.

Esther doesn't understand what is up with those plagiarism freaks.

Esther is scared of the big grass hoppers in her house.

Esther is still waiting for those three emails to come.

Esther is leaving the house to go to uni in approximately 20 minutes.

Esther postponed her test today to hopefully tml.

Esther needs to finish her geo103 assignment so that she can start on her CS one.

Esther hasn't done her chem prelab.

Esther is excited about camp.

Esther wants to give you a high five.

Esther is time traveling.

Esther likes being random, like how she is right now.

Esther is happy that it is not raining now that she wants to leave the house.

Esther hopes that it will not suddenly just start raining.

Esther doesn't know what to do and what present to buy for Sara's birthday.

Esther has been reminiscing more than usual lately.

Esther has been thinking too much, TOO much.

Esther needs a break from everything.

Esther wants to go shopping!

Esther also wants to buy an electric mixer from Kmart so that she can start baking.

Esther doesn't know why she is wasting her time writing this.

Esther has been sleeping much more this week compared to last week.

Esther is part of CNEBT!

Esther is also part of MOPS!

Esther is a HJAs!

Esther is also a BUMmer!

Esther is also a Willetton monkey!

Esther is part of On-ye Group!

Esther seems to be part of alot of things.

Esther should get herself ready to go to uni.

Esther doesn't like wearing her safety glasses.

Esther thinks they make her look weird.

Esther hopes that jun would not skip the cs class later.

Esther really has to go now.

Esther is just being Esther.

Don't bother reading

2008-04-17T01:09:00.006+08:00

Yes, really. Don't bother reading. I just like answering stuff like these. Boring, yes. No life, yes I know. But aah, I just like it. Teehee so I randomly grab them off someone who didn't even tag me. =P

1. Real name : Esther

2. Nickname : thatha, dory, ning, es, easter ** (bunny, egg, whatever la), egg

3. Married : -

4. Male or Female : Female

5. Highschool : st co

6. College : canning

7. Short or long hair : long

8. Are you a health freak : erm no?

9. Height : average

10. Do you have a crush on someone : *sings mandy moore's 'crush'

11. Do you like yourself : ooyeah babeh

12. Piercings : ears

13. Righty or Lefty : righty

FIRST'S

14. First surgery : 7 years old i think? i can't really remember

15. First piercing(s) : 15 y.o.

16. First person you see in the morning : my jiejie

17. First award : i cant quite remember

18. First sport you joined : tennis

19. First pet : gold fishies

20. First vacation : er. don't know

22. First crush : albert. heh.

CURRENTLY

23. Eating : -

24. Drinking : milo

25. I'm about to : erm. study then sleep

YOUR FUTURE

26. Want kids : yes

27. Want to get married : yes

28. Careers in mind : geologist laa

WHICH ONE IS BETTER

29. Lips or eyes : eyes

30. Hugs or kisses : hugs. definately

31. Shorter or taller : tall

32. Romantic or spontaneous : both

33. Sensitive or loud : erm. erm.

34. Trouble maker or hesitant : trouble maker

HAVE YOU EVER

35. Kissed a stranger : no

36. Drank bubbles : yes

37. Lost glasses/contacts : yes

38. Ran away from home : no

39. Liked someone younger : yes

40. Liked someone older : yes

41. Broken someone's heart : yes

42. Been arrested : no

43. Cried when someone died : yes

44. Liked a friend : yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

45. Yourself : at times yes. at times no.

46. Miracles : yes

47. Heaven : yes

48. Santa claus : noo

49. Angels : yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY ~*

50. Is there one person you want to be with right now : yes

51. Do you believe in God : yes

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1) The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
erm. depends really

2) When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
return as in how? yes i guess. i don't see how it's possible to push the cart onto the bus or into my jie's car

3) In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
erm. listener

4) Do you take compliments well?
erm. er.

5) Do you Sudoku?
yes pls

6) If abandoned alone in the wilderness, will you survive?
erm. heh. no

7) What song are you listening to?
-

8) Did you ever go to camp as kid?
yes

9) What was your favorite game as a kid?
jumping ropes

10) If a person you really liked was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you?
no

11) Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
no

12) Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
heh. be pursued

13) Use three words to describe yourself.
blur, gila, quiet

14) Do any songs make you cry?
yes

15) Are you continuing your education?
yes

16) Do you know how to shoot a gun?
toy gun yes

17) If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you'd grab?
erm. hmmmmm

18) How often do you read books?
depends

19) Do you think more about the past, present or future?
past

20) What is your favorite children's book?
the colourful pictureful childrens bible

21) What color are your eyes?
dark brown. i think

22) How tall are you?
16* cm

23) Where is your dream house located?
erm. i don't know

24) Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
no

25) When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
?

26) Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
uni

s27) Do you like mustard?
yes. no. ?

28) Do you prefer sleep or eat?
tough one. BOTH

29) Do you look like your mum or dad?
daddy

30) How long does it take you in the shower?
not very long

31) Can you do the splits?
no

32) What movie do you want to see right now?
step up 2 / a walk to remember

33) What did you do for New Year's?
visited my relatives

34) Do you own a camera phone?
yes

35) Was your mom a cheerleader?
HAH!

36) What's the last letter of your middle name?
but i dont hv a middle name

37) How many hours of sleep do you get at night?
depends

38) Do you like care bears?
yes

39) What do you buy at the movies?
movie tix. haha. nothing la

40) Do you know how to play poker?
i guess

41) Do you wear your seatbelt?
YES. i obey the rules

42) What do you wear to sleep?
pjs

43) Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
erm. yes?

44) How many meals do you eat a day?
hahaha ha ha

45) Do you always read Friendster bulletins?
no. i have a life

46) Do you like funny or serious people better?
funny

47) Ever been to L.A.?
no

48) Did you eat a cookie today?
no

49) What are you thinking right now?
i need to study and yet i'm doing this

50) Tag 6 people in your list.
es
es
es
es
es
es

Gila assignment

2008-04-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

Hm, how applicable.

NH5D

2008-04-16T08:56:00.003+08:00

It's National High Five Day tml!!!!

National High Five Day falls on the third Thursday of April each year, which falls this year on April 17, 2008. The holiday originated at the University of Virginia in 2002, and has since spread across the nation, and around the globe.

Imagine that while on your way to class, you pass a dignified looking middle-aged man in a suit. You, of course, are wearing the same underwear as yesterday, a pair of pants off your floor, and a T-shirt with something ironic printed on it. Instead of noticing this respectable pillar of society fifteen seconds or so before your interaction is fated to occur, and lowering your head to avoid his disapproving scowl, you take another course of action. You confidently walk forward, and at the moment of passing, you and the businessman simultaneously raise your hands and wordlessly high-five. The sound of the perfect high five resonates, causing those nearby to silently and enviously take notice. You both walk on, and likely relate the story to whomever you eat dinner with that night. There is no reason why this should not happen with alarming frequency.

That's pretty much it people. High Fives: Lots of 'em.

Hehe, sounds like fun!

HIGH FIVE PPL!!!

infinite xoxo

Birthday shoutout!

2008-04-13T17:31:00.007+08:00

Happy birthday Leon.
I don't have any proper photos of you i think.
Hahaha I wanted to attempt to draw a pig but you know lah, my drawing is as cacat as your's.
So quite cannot make it lah my pig drawing.
Hehe But yes,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE LEON!

infinite xoxo

Hi! I'm Dosther! *waves

2008-04-12T10:53:00.010+08:00

I had a very shocking revelation last night.

I was told that I look like a fish.

o_O

Yes you read right.

A FISH.

Fine, that was still ok.

Well, I thought maybe I look like a pretty fish.

Coz hey, that's not too bad.

Pretty fish = pretty esther

But NO I was very wrong.

I not only look like a fish.

But I look like a certain type of fish.

I look like Dory.

...

Yes, the finding nemo dory.

So, what's your verdict? Do I or do I not look like Dory?

~~*~~^*^~~*~~

Esther + dory = dosther / esthry

Random facts on dosther:
1. Esther’s favourite movie: Finding nemo.
Esther’s favourite character in the movie: Dory.
o_O
2. Esther has really bad memory .. just like Dory.
3. Esther lives on Dory Place. (seriously, there is such a street, google it if you don’t believe me)

So, honestly, do I really look like Dory???

Mutated fish

2008-04-12T10:42:00.004+08:00

I was googling images on fish and I saw something so interesting yet freaky.. It's from this site.

The photographs displayed below circulate via email and are often posted to blogs and online forums for discussion. The intriguing little creature depicted in the photographs is commonly misidentified as a "legged fish" or a "fish with legs and hands".

Some postulate that the images are actually fakes created in an image manipulation program.In fact, the photographs are genuine, although they do not depict a fish. This creature is an Axolotl or "Mexican Walking Fish". The Axolotl is an amphibian, more specifically, a salamander. Although they are native to Mexico, Axolotls have become popular as exotic pets around the world. In captivity, they are housed in an aquarium and can have a range of colours.Like some other kinds of amphibians, the Axolotl generally remains permanently in its larval form.

According to axolotl.org:
Ordinarily, amphibians undergo metamorphosis from egg to larva (the tadpole in frogs is a larva), and finally to adult form. The Axolotl, along with a number of other amphibians, remains in its larval form throughout its life. This means that it retains its gills and fins, and it doesn't develop the protruding eyes, eyelids and characteristics of other adult salamanders. Although there is no mystery or manipulation involved, these photographs certainly depict a fascinating little animal.More information about Axolotl :Axolotls: The Fascinating Mexican Axolotl and the Tiger Salamander Pet Facts: Axolotl Axolotls

An example of the email:
Subject: Fish with hands and legs..Check this out...a fish with hands and legs??? WTF!!

time-waster

2008-04-11T01:22:00.008+08:00

I'm tagged TWICE! I'm FAMOUS! hehehaha..
but really, I'm tagged twice by the same person. -.-"

WARNING: DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T WANT TO WASTE YOUR TIME.

Tag #1

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
hm, 27-ish?

2. What will you do when you feel really emo?
Think emo thoughts lah. erm, i don't know.. be emo emo loh i guess...

3. Who is your idol?
erm, don't really like the word 'idol'. role model is much better. =)
my role model ah, my mummy?

4. Where is the place that you want to go most?
for now, it's miri. i really REALLY miss home

5. If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?
hahhahaha, too many liao, don't know how to choose

6. What is the purpose of your life?
to make my Father smile, haha alot lah, I'm purpose-ful

7. What are you afraid to lose the most right now?
my faith

8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?
erm.. happy stuff?

9. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
nah, let the guy do the confessing hahaha

10. List out three good things of the person who tagged you.
Cindy :- Funny, Nice and Gila (being gila is good! so can gila gila with me)

11. What type of person do you hate the most?
Hahaha, if ask me today, I would like to talk about a certain ang moh girl who wore a green top today. She makes me so #($* pissed. grrr
yah, that type lah. green-top-wearing-ang-moh-girls-that-piss-me-off

12. What would you do if you won a million dollars?
HAhahahaha, put in the bank lah, takkan i carry/keep so much money with me. later kena rompak!!!!

13. What is your ambition?
Little Miss Gold Digger. Hua ha ha ha.

14. What will you do if you got rejected by someone you like?
Won't happen coz I don't think I would be the one confessing loh. hahahaha unless I'm super duper despo.

15. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
Aah, banyak banyak, laziness, erm... haih too many lah. =(

16. What is your favourite colour?
PINK. hahahaha

17. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Does God count? If not, my family.

18. If there’s one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?
Change some of my past

19. What would you do if tomorrow was the last day of the world?
Hahaha, i'm gonna save the world! LOL, nah, probably spend the day with loved ones. =)

20. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
=)

Tag #2
1 Which feature do you zoom in on when you meet a guy/girl for the first time?
Errrrmmm, i don't know. Whatever that stands out?

2. Who is your role model?
Ooh ooh, question asked well. Hahahaha, my mummy?

3. What's the healthiest thing you would eat among sushi, salad and sandwich?
SUSHI to the SUSHI!!!! aaah, cravings

4. Which movie you can watch again and again?
Finding nemo

5. Three gadgets that you can't live without?
Handphone, Laptop, er yah, that's about it.

6. What is your most annoying habit?
Ermmmmmm

7. What's one thing you're glad you've outgrown?
er er er er er er I CAN'T Think. =(

8. I get nervous when...
i hand up my PSI Chem test for marking

9. My biggest fear is...
going to hell

10.The best thing I've done for myself is...
Haha got lah

11. Pass this to 6 people.
lazy think of who lah, whoever's really bored or likes to answer tags or want to self proclaim famous (huahahaha) can take it la.

As you can see, I'm not very good at replying tags. I love doing them but nah, just not very good at doing it. Sad.

Anyhoos, it's back to work for me.

infinite xoxo

random

2008-04-10T12:15:00.001+08:00

esther is YEW-nique! ;)

heh.. told you it's random

infinite xoxo

For the love of rocks..

2008-04-07T23:34:00.003+08:00

FOR THE LOVE OF ROCKS, I WILL :

1. Finish my physics lab report
2. Study Chemistry Topic 8
3. Do my maths quiz
4. Finish my Geo 101 assignment
5. Study maths module 2
6. Do my PSI Chemistry Test
7. Prepare for my Communication Skills workshop

and...

FOR THE LOVE OF ROCKS, I WILL :

Do all these within this very week.

and...

FOR THE LOVE OF ROCKS!! I WILL!! :

..

I WILL!!..

....

Get out of being stuck at number 1.

T.T

Someone save me.. NOW

when boredom strikes

2008-04-05T10:22:00.007+08:00

It's 5 pm. You've had a long day. Your geology lecturer is rambling away about some crystalogy stuff that you really don't understand. You are sitting at the last row of the LT. It's dark. Your friend beside you is dozing off and repeats that he is bored countless times. You have a pencil and a piece of paper in front of you.

What do you do?

-- You draw.

Jun . Es . Cyn
'We LOVE rocks!'

hm, note to self - start paying attention in class!

infinite xoxo

Birthday wishes!

2008-03-30T19:38:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday to my bestest friend, Abby!
18+ years of friendship and more to look forward to!
I miss you alot and I wish I had you here with me. =(
Love you dear
And YOU'RE OLD! =P heheh nearing to ur mumwith8kids thing
hehehe jkjk

......

Happy birthday to karen ooi, bernice and esther siong too!
May you have lots of wonderful blessings from our papa God.

...

infinite xoxo

Above all..

2008-03-23T14:28:00.005+09:00

Above all powers, above all kings

Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of men
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms, above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures the world has ever known
There's no way to measure what You're worth

Crucified, laid behind a stone
You lived to die, rejected and alone
Like a rose trampled on the ground
You took the fall and thought of me
Above all